Story of Now

I am trying to learn to use my Wacom tablet for drawing in photoshop.  I drew the bird above no less than 10 times and I am still not completely thrilled with it but it is better than the first one I drew.   By nature I am someone who has a million ideas, I think "I could do that!" and when I fail to meet my expectations I give up and try something else.  Around Christmas time last year I started to see a new possibility through my art. I realized the struggle and the working through was important and vital to the process. So many times I paint something and think "eh, I don't like how THAT turned out." And now instead of hanging my head I move on, I let it sit, I paint over it, I don't dwell. I am naturally creative but not naturally artistic...does that make sense? Being creative is part of me, the itch that keeps itching.  If time for creativity is lacking I get crabby. But being artistic, that is a muscle that needs to be worked.

I truly admire the way he is with the girls. He can play so no one feels left out. Where I struggle, he shines. This is the way he is, the way I have always known him to be. He is all inclusive, leaving no one on the sidelines. And I admire him year after year.