Sunday, January 25, 2009

Sometimes...

Sometimes I am strong, sometimes I'm not
Sometimes I cry when I'm happy, and sometimes when I am sad
Sometimes I love the questions, and sometimes they drive me nuts
Sometimes I have the answers, and sometimes I don't


Life is very Yin and Yang right now. So many happy- good things happening, and a few things happening with no solid answers. It is the way life goes and I am a firm believer that when something is going not the way I'd hoped, that means I need to have a heightened awareness. My Grandparents are getting older and having some difficulty and I find myself noticing more about them and the way they have lived and loved.

My family and I got together last night to discuss all that is going on. I am very thankful that I have such a wonderful, supportive family, who are all willing to take action and help out.


This picture is an old one but I thought it applied to what I have been feeling!


One of my favorite quotes!


I beg you…to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without ever noticing it, live your way into the answer… -


Rainer Maria Rilke

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Hope is the thing...


HOPE
By Emily Dickinson

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune--without the words,
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.
I have adored this poem forever.
After watching the inauguration today, hope is the feeling I was left with.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Beautiful Love


Aging is an interesting thing.

You see my grandparents are 91 this year, still happily in love, and quite healthy for their age.

It seems though that their bodies are slowing down and their role in the family may be changing.


When I think back to my childhood, my grandpa was always setting up a game or telling a story of some sort...a man with an amazing memory. He is the type of guy who could brighten the whole room...he has a huge heart, beautiful smile and an amazing spirit.


And for Grandma, she always showed her love by making the most wonderful, delicious meals. Food can't taste that good without love. She'd always make sure you were well fed.

Grandma has got this quirky sense of humor that makes you recall it days later, and have another chuckle.


These two people are beautiful. They have lived so long and so simply. They inspire me.


In December, my Grandma was having some back pain and ended up being in the hospital and then in transitional care. She was away from home for 3 weeks. Her and Grandpa missed eachother so much, it was really hard for them to grasp why she needed to stay and get therapy. She came home Christmas Day, and that was a blessing.


On January 14th, my Grandpa went into the hospital after having a TIA (Transient Ischemic Attack). While he was at the hospital, getting all checked out, someone needed to stay with Grandma. I stayed a night over there and watched over Grandma and prepared her meals and warmed up her coffee when needed. It was different, having switched roles. Grandpa came home today, and that is a blessing.


I have this huge amount of love for them and I respect all that they have been for me and for eachother and our family. They are in love and they have grown together and taken care of eachother...a trully beautiful thing.


Then I am left with questions:

How do I support them as they age?

How can I make their lives easier or more fulfilling as they tire out?

What can I contribute to their lives?


These are the questions I am living right now.


And when I pray to God to help me find the answers and I begin to cry, I am thankful that my husband is holding me tight.
Live. Love. Laugh. Embrace.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

A Day in the Life: Artist

I had the pleasure of spending some time photographing my brother Lance, and his friends Brandon and Ben. They went to work painting and I captured them doing what they love!

I had alot of fun seeing their creative process in action and seeing them collaborate on a painting (or 4). They will be having a gallery show in October 2009, I will let you know the details when I find out.

Without further explanation, here are the artists at work!!







These kind of moments, where I am capturing people doing what they love and just living, creates great energy in me. This is the type of session I am looking to do more of.
Think of those times when you are just enjoying life. Whether it is playing with your kids, reading the Sunday paper and drinking coffee with your sweetie, walking in the park, building a snowman, that is what I want to capture. I want to capture the day to day activities, the ones that often go uncaptured and yet add so much to our lives! A "Day in the Life" session could be done during a time of sickness, a time when you are unsure when the last day will be for a loved one or animal. I am here to capture those times too.
Email me if you want a "Day in the Life" session. visualessence@gmail.com

Live. Love. Laugh. Embrace.

Friday, January 2, 2009

A New Year...

I have always enjoyed the beginning of a new year...it refreshens me.


I do not long to make resolutions because I don't feel there is anything to resolve.


I do yearn to be a better person day after day and year after year.



I do yearn to be a healthier me.


Connecting with people on a deep level is what is important to me!



Being with my loved ones warms me.



With this New Year, I am welcoming opportunities!



Just as a brand new baby discovers its world for the first time, so shall my senses discover the world in this new year!!