Saturday, February 22, 2014

Emotionally mixed

Four and a half years ago my husband and I were newlyweds living in an apartment and we had big dreams which included having a home based business for him and raising a family.
My mom was living in a big house alone with more indoor and outdoor chores than one person could handle.
We decided to move in with my mom.
We started planning for our future and we were able to lessen the burden of chores for my mom.

Next weekend she moves to her own place and we take on the house. This all comes with very mixed emotions.  It has been great to have my mother, who really is one of my best friends, right there to answer all those questions that every new mother has.  She has always been one of my best cheerleaders.  
It has been such a blessing for my first daughter to grow up living with grandma the first couple years.
We've shared meals and chores but most of all we have shared love and our lives for four and a half years.
I am excited to raise my little family in this home, but we are going to miss her presence here.
 I am so happy that she isn't moving too far away.
I pray that my daughter transitions well.
I know it will be an adjustment for everyone and that in the end we will all blossom.
Cheers to the memories and to new beginnings!!

Friday, February 14, 2014

Mother of 2

I have learned so much already and still have plenty to learn.  I have a new appreciation for mothers of more than one child and a soft spot for mothers of one that have anxiety about having another.

For myself, I did not expect to experience so much joy, at least not this early on.  I didn't think teaching my toddler about the baby would be so satisfying.  I thought I would feel lonely and depressed like I did the first time around, wasn't thinking that my toddler would be my daily entertainment and companion.

I was worried that I wouldn't be able to give my baby the same attention that I gave my first.  I don't give the same attention, but that's okay this baby is going to be loved, entertained and taught, not only by her parents but her big sister too.  I realize it's okay to not hold the baby all day.

 I realize we all have to have quite a bit of patience.  Sometimes the baby has to wait because the toddler needs a meal prepared or to use the bathroom.  Sometimes the toddler has to wait because momma doesn't have two hands to help.  Sometimes momma just needs to take a deep breath and realize that this crazy moment shall pass too.  Being a little more tolerant of toddlerisms has helped.  I know that when I stay calm we have a much smoother day and I try not to make little things into big things.  I try to occasionally say yes to some of the things that I normally wouldn't (like microwave popcorn at 2 in the afternoon).  I actually have started to understand the benefit of noticing the good behavior and complimenting it.  I know that the baby will be okay if she cries a little while I finish something else.

I feel we are more of a family.  It's like everything we do and decision we make has to be the best for everyone.  I feel more confident in caring for this baby.  I feel like being a mom of 2 makes me feel more complete.