Story of Now

I have been seeing so many butterflies this summer. I think I've had a bit of an obsession with them or maybe we've just been drawn to eachother this summer. Yesterday, I had one land on me and it stayed there for awhile even as I was walking. One of the ladies at the party said it was good luck. I'll take it. I finished up a painting this week and decoupaged a butterfly on it. I like it. For me, it represents hope and transformation, which has been a big theme for me these past several months. Live. Love. Laugh. Embrace.

Dear Butterfly- You remind me...that moments are fleeting, yet significant... that beauty is in the smallest details... that life itself is a dance...and that God is working in mysterious ways every day. I want to thank you dearest butterfly for the reminders you bring! Live. Love. Laugh. Embrace.

This is a follow up post to this post. So, I would like to say that I have been eating Oatmeal almost every morning for breakfast since March and have been eating Yogurt once in awhile but still have to eat it slowly in order not to gag. This feels like a pretty huge accomplishment for me and I like it because both are healthy. I will continue to try things that I have disliked in the past because now I know, taste buds or texture toleration can change!! Live. Eat. Laugh.

Most days I am a happy person. I tend to look on the sunny side of things and some people think that is how I am ALL the time. It is not true. Last Friday was one of those not-so-sunny days. I was questioning everything and not liking much. It was a funk and I couldn't just shake it off with good music. I sat at Caribou with a yummy caramel highrise, a notebook and a pen. I first wrote down the things that I want to do, then I wrote down what was missing from my life. This did not help. It made me feel worse. Then I thought "Oh, I'll write down all the good things I have going!" Immediately when I started writing, I could feel my face loosen up and a smile emerge from the inside. My body felt lighter. My mood was changed for the rest of the day. You know, my "good" list was much longer than my "what's missing" list. So yeah, that whole "attitude of gratitude" thing really does work!! Live. Love. Laugh. Embrace.

This is the third time I have taken pictures of these brothers. They usually start out pretty serious and towards the end of the session I get lots of goofy faces. It makes it really fun!! Dear boys, never let your young hearts grow old. Live. Love. Laugh. Embrace.

To keep my dreams alive, I must constantly remind myself what they are. I must keep them in front of me and tell myself that what I am doing, and what is happening has purpose. The little things I do, are important. Raising children. That is important to Matt and I. It is our dream to have a big family. I need to keep that dream in front of me, instead of dwelling on the miscarriage. We want to build a pole barn for our businesses. I must remind myself the opportunity that will provide us, instead of focusing on the fact that it isn't done yet. Sometimes, it is easy for me to get off course. I get stuck in survival mode and forget my purpose. I get caught in simply just doing my duties. But having just got back from a week of vacation in Ely, I feel refreshed. Priorities are realigned. Dreams are renewed.